she saw beyond what others see.

I feel surprisingly horrible now, like someone just ran me over with both a freaking train and a lorry ._. Panadol is helping to take a little of my headache away but I can feel bile rising up every few seconds wtf gross max.

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Maybe I'm not as good but it doesn't mean I can't do it.

Open my eyes, it was only just a dream

I THINK NO ONE READS HERE ANYMORE. I hope HAHAHA.

&Justin bieber won best male for EMA awards omg THIS. IS. GROSS. I usually have nothing against him but why is he winning so many prizes that he don't deserve?

Woohoo going to watch harry potter after titanic (: Maybe I'll finally understand why people like it so much.

Mercury was very (Y). At first I thought it'll end up very lame and everything but it wasn't. I wish I can be as expressive as the actors.

Anyway today was supposed to be very awesome but somehow it was ruined. I honestly can't stand you. I don't think I can take such bullshit LOL I might end up bitch slapping you if you ever treat me like that. HAHA I sound like a bitch.

But I'm not. You are.

Give and take

Instead of forcing your personality on others all the time why can't you try and give in sometimes?

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Actually I typed a lot more but I deleted them all. I feel very tired nowadays keep sleeping in lessons and everything. I really need motivation ): I think I have a high chance of failing my maths.

Anyway live range was quite O: The sound of the rifles was damn loud gosh but it's quite cool to have real bullets flying out for once.

I don't feel the motivation anymore. I'm really screwing up my own life zzz.

Timothy: I hope someday I'll suddenly feel this jolt in my mind and become very smart!
Me: I've been waiting for 15 years. You can stop hoping LOL.


&Things like this, they never happen to people like us ._.

HAHA you know I secretly envy people with lots of charisma. Like hitler! I don't have any at all zz damn sad okay bye.

Erase, replace.

Goal: To get into the Dean's List at least once.

That is, if I ever get into uni. I must make sure that I don't get kicked out of RV first ):

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I wanted to apologise to you throughout the lessons but I chose to kept silent instead. Honestly, I can't really remember what I said to you because I was acting like some stupid zombie throughout the whole day.

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Oh and I shall finish the chinese book! Wait and see HAHAHA.

I bet you've never felt anything like this before.

Oh yes, have a safe trip to china weiyang (: I think our class will be very silent during lessons for the whole week LOL.

I honestly don't know what to post I feel shagged ):

Gosh now the happy feeling is gone and replaced by a headache ): I hate the smell of burning joss stick wtf it makes me sick.

Monday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANETTE TEO HAHAHA I LOVE YOU!!!! :D :D :D


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You know today is one of those days where everything seems like they'll turn out okay no matter what. I know this is going to sound very stupid and bimbo but I feel like my brain is filled with bubbles. HAHAHAHA.

Today morning on the bus there was this random guy sitting beside me who offered me his candy and I took one LOL. Jon and Timo was scolding me for being silly when I told them hahahaha.

Oh I didn't sleep in lessons at all! :D Timo was telling me all the random things and hitting me with his paper fan every 15 min to ask me not to sleep HAHA. &Jon was singing bad romance and the PPG song during la and chi. Gosh I love my seat.

Hmm and at je I knocked over this whole shelf of stuff and two very nice Indian ladies helped me pick up all the stuff and fix back the shelf :D

Oh and thanks Weiquan HAHA.

Weekends

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Today was awesome as well. I'm so proud of us :D

Oh and tomorrow is CID! Our structure is going to be (Y)

It's a thing that happens far too often.

"I will be the Tom and you will be the Jerry. Why? Cos you look like a fucking rat, that's why"

HAHAHAHA my brother. I thought it was going to be some mushy sentence for some random girl at first when I read the tom and jerry part. LOL.

Oh yes I saw something very scary at jp today and I was so scared/worried for her. I hope I'll never end up like that ): &No weely tey I don't like weird animals -.-

Why do we only learn to treasure after something is gone?

Omg I'm damn screwed I wasted one whole day eating and walking around. Now all my chinese hw is undone zzz.

"If a tree falls in the forest and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound?"

I remember I read this phrase long time ago in some book but I can't remember where ): Today was such a weird day and I'm mad tired now.

2nd last act :/

Today was very fun omg HAHAHA actually I was quite grumpy in the morning because I'd to wake up so early but I felt very motivated and happy afterwards. Aiyo a lot of funny things happened and the trolley game was very fun! :D I wanted to play some more but the uncle stopped us zz.

&It wasn't until weely pointed it out that I realise how different our taste is. It's like there's probably a 90 percent chance of her not liking the things I like and vice versa. Weird but at least we won't ever fight over some guy right! LOL.

Abrupt end but I want to go eat dinner.

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I can't stop laughing at the computer screen now omg HAHAHA (Y) I think it's not supposed to be funny actually but I just find it very funny LOL.

Life

"... People are always saying that a person's character is unchangeable, but mostly it's the persona that doesn't change, not the person, and underneath that changeless mask exists a creature who's evolving like crazy, mutating out of control. I tell you, the most consistent person you know is more than likely a complete stranger to you, blossoming and sprouting all sorts of wings and branches and third eyes. You could sit beside that person in an office cubicle for ten years and not see the growth spurts going on right under your nose. Honestly, anyone who says a friend of theirs hasn't changed in years just can't tell a mask from an actual face."

-A Fraction of the Whole by Steve Toltz

This book seems awesome! :D HAHA today was (Y)(Y)(Y). I feel very happy gosh. Like the happiest I've been for the whole of this week. I hope it stays this way, being sad sucks like mad but I've a feeling tmr will be ._. again.

Oh I feel like going ikea again!! HAHAHA.

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Zzz I don't feel happy anymore my brain hurts from thinking for so many hours. LOL wth and I've to wake up so early tmr gosh I feel like dying ): &My hw is still undone! I'm screwed.



The song doesn't make sense but I like it.

I remember the time when me and chua went into HawParVilla alone because someone refuses to go in with us (-.-) and we screamed till we were hoarse HAHAHA. There was this stupid mirror thing which scared us like mad LOL and it turned out to be a scam, thinking back I'm quite glad that noob didn't dare to go in with us LOL.

Oh ya thanks suhui, jiaxin, wan qing, phoebe, shihui and jiahui! :D must go out once we have the time!!! Triple science takes up so much time. I guess I can only blame myself for being stupid and not studying hard enough when I'd the chance ): Now we're totally at different blocks gosh.

Day 10: someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down.

Jenny Suk! (L) I like their version better.

First day of school was okay. I wish the days will pass faster though. My hair is screwed now zz I want it to grow ):

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Dear LJW,

I've no idea why I'm writing this letter to you LOL! Ah well I do miss sitting with you though ): I know you used to read my blog HAHA luckily now you don't anymore.

Oh you know I used to have this terrible impression of you in year 1. Omg you were such a terrible person -.- You were always bullying Joseph and you didn't work hard for anything gosh. There was this one time I saw you dancing and singing some weird jay chou song by accident gosh I still can't get the memory out of my mind. It was very funny HAHAHAHAHA but quite disturbing as well.

BUT! I got to know you better in year 2 and I realised that you're actually quite a nice person and very smart as well. Hmm my face was totally like ._. when I saw the new sitting arrangement LOL. But then as time passed I started liking my seat hahaha I thought that it was very cozy :D Still do btw.

I can't really remember what I even talked to you about gosh I think most of them were bullshit HAHAHA so embarrassing. I remember there was this one time I pinned up my fringe because of spot check and asked for your opinion because I'd no mirror and you told me I looked screwed -.- Wtf I had a phobia of pinning up my fringe for a whole week after that!!! Ohoh and you always looked so embarrassed when I had to stand up and read some random Chinese passage. Even though it was quite embarrassing at that time but now that I think back it's quite funny LOL. Your expression = (Y)

You were really quite nice at times I remember that there were many times when I became very upset because I felt stupid but you encouraged me (: Even though it didn't really cheer me up but it doesn't matter. Oh and I used to ask you to teach me hw and I think you taught me a lot of wrong stuff HAHAHAHA.

Gosh I've a lot of memories of you doing noob things haha. I hope you're happy with your desk partner(s) now HAHAHA I bet they aren't as awesome as me. Just kidding.

Jasmine :D

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I think I HAHAHA too much.

Gosh HAHAHAHA.

Day 9: someone you wish you could meet

Dear Chuck Bass,

Looking at all your pictures make me want to watch gossip girl 3 immediately gosh but I have no time. Anyway hi HAHAHA I don't really have an idol because I find it stupid to obsess over someone but I want to meet you anyway awww :D

Your character was so (Y) in GG omg I totally fell in love with you. I don't like Nick gosh he is such a wuss -.- I can't remember the plot in GG and now I'm troubled because I can't remember if you hooked up with Vanessa or not! You better don't wtf. Stick with Blair!

Anyway I like you because you are so sweet to Blair LOL and you've a complicated personality. Although you're not really very handsome and you give me the impression that you're quite short but then I like your expressions omg they are damn soulful I swear HAHAHAHA. But your hair quite is quite weird in the series I think you should change your hairdresser. You look like you're balding D:

I think you'll disappoint me in real life as Ed Westwick but I shall pretend you're going to come meet me as Chuck Bass hmmm. Oh btw I think it's quite cool you managed to change your accent for the series :D

xoxo,
Jasmine :D

Day 8: your favourite internet friend

Dear favourite internet friend,

Hello I don't think you exist. I prefer talking to people face to face HAHAHA but ohwell if I must have one I hope you'll appear soon then I can force you to read my rants!! Gosh quite impossible though. This is the stupidest letter I've written so far ):

Jasmine

Day 7: your ex-crush

Dear ex-crush,

I actually had this letter intended for someone else but I don't think I'm up to writing it anymore.

Okay anyway I was thinking back and I realise you were my 1st crush in RV HAHAHAHA. Even though it was only for a very short period of time but still! I've no idea why I liked you though, you don't really have much redeeming qualities except for maybe your confidence? But then again, you've too much of it which is actually kind of a turn off.

I remember there was this time you talked to me and I was so embarrassed gosh ._. I think I ended up mumbling something senseless and walking off. You must have thought that I was mad. Maybe I am LOL. Oh well I'm still quite embarrassed to have ever liked you. Quite glad I don't go for your type anymore.

Jasmine.

Day 6: a stranger

Dear neighbour,

I've no idea what your name is and I've no interest in knowing. I guess we're considered strangers because we've never spoken before.

I don't why but I feel very sad for you. You're always screaming and slamming doors. I've heard rumours about your family and it makes me sad. Even though you're really a bitch at times but I guess if the rumours are true then you've your reasons. Although that doesn't change the fact that you're a terrible mother ._.

Oh well I've no idea why I'm writing this letter to you. I guess maybe I'm not in the right state of mind now but I hope that your life improves.

From,
your neighbour.

I guess no one will ever understand.

I'm too emotional.

You know I can't stand people like you. Have a little more trust why don't you.

Forget it.

Day 5: your dreams

Dear dreams,

I can't really remember you most of the time. But I hope I'll stop remembering the weird China dreams LOL. Let me remember the interesting dreams!

I hope I can have a dream where I'm in this awesome place with a lot of hot guys and where I can eat a lot without getting fat HAHAHA. Even better if it's recurrent! I bet my studies will improve if I've such dreams every night.

Just kidding heh. It's boring to have recurrent dreams. Maybe you can let me dream about me being in the palace LOL I think it's kind of cool. I think I'm being affected by the drama gosh. Actually I won't want to be in the palace because it's a scary place ):

Oh yesss I don't want nightmares btw I think they're scary ._.

love,
jasmine! :D

I'm supposed to go out now but I can't bring myself to open the door HAHAHA. Now I'm going to be late ._. &I'm damn sleepy I can't open my eyes fully.

Oh and you know I can't find the rest of my fbts only the purple one and I've to wear the blue skirt over it because it's embarrassing and now I look like a noob LOL.

Awesome afternoon (Y)

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I'm back.

Gosh when me and weely reached yck it was raining like mad and we'd no umbrella HAHAHA. Then I ate the super nice instant noodles heh. Oh yes but after that it was still raining like mad ): So we went to amk to find umbrella LOL. &We ended up with this




HAHAHAHAHA it looks more stupid in real life we couldn't stop laughing. &We didn't dare to use in HQ either.

Oh oh I wanted to post this just now but I forgot! Oh yes you know the more I know about you the more disgusted I get.

You're seriously damn disgusting so stop flaunting and thinking you're so awesome when you're obviously not. Tmd I was so pissed off just now I could've threw darts at your face if you had appeared in front of me. Who do you think you are huh!! Very angry at how some guys treat girls. I swear if anyone ever does that to me I'll castrate him. HAHAHA gosh.

I'm quite sad there is no charlie outing later. But ah well I'm going HQ with weely again gosh.

Day 4: your sibling(s)

Dear Jonathan,

Hello you noob. I'd a lot of things I wanted to type out just now! But then when I stared at this blank page I forgot what I wanted to say. LOL. Oh yes I was so pissed off with you yesterday -.- You and your stupid hissy fits. But then again it reminds me so much of myself when I was in sec 1 HAHA gosh I didn't know I was that unreasonable and bitchy. Now I do though! I hope you'll realise this soon enough before you start regretting like me. You used to be so mild tempered and very talkative and friendly. But now you just mope around the house and give that bs face all the time.

I know I was quite mean to you last time and kept saying nasty things to you :/ I bet you don't know that I was quite jealous of you when we were young because I always felt that mummy doted on you more. &You were always so likable, adults loved you.

Hmm I remember I was quite protective of you when we were young LOL I guess it was my way of showing my love? Can still remember that bitchy school bus auntie omg! I swear she was abusing her power -.- Oh and when we had swimming lessons last time I was always so afraid for you when we had to go into the deep end because of that stupid incident when we almost drowned. But you ended up a much better swimmer than me.

Oh and you remember BCC HAHAHA so childish! But we played it for a lot of years. 4 years? &We swore never to tell anyone what it means and you know what? I think I kept my promise!

I guess it's partially my fault we became so distant from each other but I'm quite glad you joined NCC. Even though I don't think you're going to feel the same way as I do but still! I hope you do. Oh and I'm kind of glad you opened up to me a little bit more (: Go for yy LOL I support you! Just don't become too mushy please it's quite disgusting.

Oh I don't really love you I guess but I do like you sometimes. &I miss the old you.

xoxo,
Your sister :D

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Dear Jeanette,

Aww hi (: Quite funny writing this to you HAHA you don't even know how to speak yet! You know I really do love you a lot hmm even though you sometimes make me unable to sleep gosh why do you sleep so late anyway!

I find it so cute how you like sleeping with the air conditioner on LOL. Oh and how you loved listening to MJ songs when you were still in the womb. Now you just cry when we play music -.-

You know I think I didn't love you enough and I'm sorry but I was really scared. I hope you'll forgive me.

I LOVE YOU BABY HAHA (L)

xoxo,
Your sister :D

You know that feeling when after you just took a bath then your hair is dripping wet and you feel irritated because you've wet hair. HAHAHA I think I'm having mood swings how! I'm feeling happy and sad at the same time gosh.

But I really hate having wet hair it's irritating ._. &It takes so long to dry.

Day 3: your parents

Dear Daddy,

Hello I never would have guessed that I'll be writing a letter to you. On my blog somemore LOL. I remember when I was young I looked up to you a lot. You were like the world to me. &When you went for your overseas work trips I missed you so much I hugged your enormous bolster to sleep. When I was young, you were always the one who gave in to me and I know that's because you love me. I was so spoilt hahaha you bought me so many toys just because I wanted them.

You know I always wondered what went wrong. I guess it's because as I slowly grow up I learn things I couldn't understand when I was young. &I guess it's because I'm too much like you. I'm too stubborn for my own good.

I'm glad at least we're talking now, and I know you still love me even though you don't say it anymore. I think I still need more time though.

But well, I LOVE YOU TOO DADDY (L). &I'll never forget the fact that you were once the person I admire the most.

xxx,
your daughter

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Dear Mummy,

I remember when I was young I thought you were the prettiest woman in the world haha. But till now you're still pretty to me LOL. When I was young and we still went out together, people always comment how on I don't look like you at all and I know it made you quite sad but you didn't really show it. Oh I remember how in pri school you always cycle me to school, now that I think back it must have been really tiring. Gosh. &There was this time long ago you cut your finger and I know it must have hurt like mad but you still had to help me tie my hair. God I was such a selfish brat. I'm so sorry ):

I know we'd a lot of quarrels and both of us had said things we are not proud of. I want to apologise for some of the things I said to you in the past out of spite because I know that they hurt you really bad but I was too selfish, too angry to care. I'm glad that at least now we don't quarrel as much as before. I guess it's because I'm more mature now?

I'm trying to be a better daughter and I hope I can be but it's going to take time. I've a lot of things I want to say but then I've no idea how to put them into words. I guess there's never enough words to show gratitude.

Well, I LOVE YOU MUMMY (L)

xxx,
your daughter.

Catch me

I like her voice (:

I can't believe I spent this whole day at the library doing hw! Quite sad actually LOL and I ate a lot omg I feel damn full and sick now.

I can't wait for my dad to come back so I can hurry up and give him his fathers' day present! It's going to be 12 soon.

Day 2: your crush

Dear you,

I was thinking about how to write this letter just now. I seriously have no idea how to write this letter LOL quite ridiculous actually because I don't even really have a crush on you anymore I think it died out like a week ago? So that makes you day 7. But no I'm not going to write that for you HAHAHA. You know it's actually quite weird to be writing this on my birthday! Anyway, I just want to say thanks (:

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&LOL CHUA JIAXIN ARE YOU APPEARING OFFLINE? Let's go back macs and find that chio lesbian girl! HAHA.

Day 1: your best friend

I'm only to do this 30 days letter thing cos it seems fun. You know there's a 30 day kpop thing too omg madness.

Dear Chua,

HAHA you know you're my best friend right! You know I actually have no idea how we even became best friends, quite weird I think we hated each other at the start of year 1 but I can't remember why. Ohoh I'd a hard time trying to remember your name on the 1st day of school btw I thought you were weird LOL sorry! Can you remember our childish twitty lesbian blog? Our anniversary is on April 27! I checked from the blog haha. Oh I lost the archives of your twitty blog ): I want to read about the noob things we did so you must faster go undelete it I promise I won't laugh at it anymore.

I'm starting to recall all the weird things we did together and I realise a lot of them are quite embarrassing. Like that time we ran across a road I think and a car almost hit us and both of us started screaming vulgarities hahaha and everyone started staring at us. &How we bought the same swimsuit for swimming lessons. We both looked noob D: Oh and that time we were on a bus together and we started calling each other weird names. Aiyo so childish LOL. &There's still our maple characters HAHA. I can't remember the rest right now but haha confirm got a lot more omg we did so many stupid things together last time.

Hmm and I love you for being so similar to me. Like how we always end up being late for everything because we always oversleep/spend too long combing our hair and how we always end up bathing for so long. And the fact that we anyhow scold vulgarities when we're pissed off oops. &How we like stalking pretty girls and hot guys! Oh and how we are both so noob and always promising ourselves that we'll turn pro-er but in the end still fail. Omg all these are bad habits actually LOL.

&I love you for being different from me. Like how I'm white and you're black HAHAHAHAHA! No lah just kidding. But you like huachi-ing over ugly guys which I don't >) &Your chinese is better than mine and to be truthful you actually look quite pro while reading chinese but I didn't want to tell you that last time HAHA.

I think this letter is the longest I've ever written you! &It's going to become longer omg I've a lot of things to write. I want to thank you for always being there for me even though now we're not in the same class anymore. I love you because I can tell you anything and you won't judge at all (: &I want to thank you for standing by me no matter what, like last year with yp. Actually not only that but a lot of times already. I know there were times we fell out like that time last year whereby there was this period of time we'd nothing to say to each other. I guess it wasn't really falling out? But during that time I did question our friendship and I wondered if we could really stay as best friends. Thinking back that was quite stupid. I always end up losing friends because I get scared when people get too close to me but I'm glad I didn't lose you during that period.

LOL writing this letter makes me feel nostalgic. Even though we're not in the same class anymore and not as close as before but you're still my best friend because we've been through too much together and no matter what you know you'll always be in my heart. Aiyo idk how to write this because somehow all the mushy stuffs always end up sounding so cliche. But you know what I want to say right!

Okay I think I should end off already. I LOVE YOU CHUA JIAXIN (L) Ohoh &remember our promise to each other from last year okay!! Our turn will come soon hahaha patience :D

JASMINE (:

Because

no one cares enough to make an effort.

It's no wonder people drift apart. I should have known huh.

&YES JUNHUI MOULIN ROGUE IS AWESOME HAHAHA (:

Closer

Watched closer yesterday.




It's quite nice :D I think it's supposed to be abstract? Quite confusing at first cos they kept jumping here and there without notice and I can't recognise the characters cos they look different at different parts of the show.
The storyline is about this two couples who had affairs with each other. I like natalie portman's voice it sounds very sexy. HAHA.

Oh and I finished LA hw (Y) Gosh it's the only thing I know how to do. I need help with everything else. Especially chinese ._.

&I don't understand why my hair won't grow.

And the thing is

history really do repeat itself.

Does it matter?

Omg I realise I've less than 2 weeks of holidays left and I haven't done anything constructive at all!!! Z I'm going to start tomorrow.

Today was (Y) and (N) ._. (Y) part was mam joycelin talking to us, going to buy foodddd and giving weely her card but the rest was (N). I felt so motivated to mug just now but it's gone again HAHAHA and my ezlink card is with weely tey I dropped it on the bus so I can't go out ): Actually I'm just lazy LOL.

My voice is damn high pitched which is quite disgusting ._. I need to be more man.

nothing to lose

3H BBQ was awesome HAHA all we did was to bbq eat play and camwhore but still fun. The stingray is awesome. Oh and our class tee is very pretty.

(:

Fucktards.

One last day O: WE CAN DO IT CHARLIE! :D

But even so I'm still scared to death gosh.

Your song

I'd a dream this morning that I was going china on a bus. Mad HAHA and all I wanted to do was to go home and get my camera charger.

Anyway Moulin Rouge! is damn nice omg O: I like the songs! &Nicole Kidman has the same birthday as me LOL. Wah the guy is quite hot also.

Marigold have terrible tasting yoghurt yucks ._.

&I keep thinking that I'm finished with gsk when I obviously haven't zz.

I was laughing at the longest time at this for the wrong reason HAHAHA. A lot of funny pics in astrid's album.

I realise I've really bad moodswings like astrid goh. Okay back to gsk. &I'm going to delete this blog LOL blogging is boring.

&This is how losing a friend feels like.

I don't like talking about the serious stuffs. Spoils everything.

#07 Astrid 2FTW! says:
and taeyang doesnt look korean right!

#15 JASMINE 2FTW! says:
ya he looks indian

#07 Astrid 2FTW! says:
LOL WTF

#15 JASMINE 2FTW! says:
LOL no lah i think he looks chinese

#07 Astrid 2FTW! says:
eh i dont wanna talk to u alr lol

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It's so easy to lose yourself.

What am I doing seriously. I should stop this.

You.
Are not what you seem to be at all.

And this don't just apply to one person.

Back

If you don't know, you're becoming just like him.

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OH LOL I HAD FUN KILLING THESE GIGANTIC INSECTS WITH MY BRO JUST NOW. Quite sadistic cos we cut them into a lot of pieces with the leg of a chair. You know those plastic red ones. But I enjoyed seeing the stupid insects being cut into pieces cos they are scary. Oh you know the insect's head looks like a raisin LOL.

I think I'm mad O:

Cameron trip was fun btw. Esp the 2nd night when me weely geok goh kar enn ended up doing a lot of crazy stuffs. I like trekking too! So cool hah but I fell a lot times when going down gosh the mud makes everything so slippery. Maybe I should blog in details next time. But not here LOL.

How are you supposed to please so many people at one go? ._.

Anyway I'm going cameron tmr HAHA excited! But I think I'm sick. Hope I recover by tomorrow.

Atonement

I think I enjoy certain kinds of pain LOL. I'm such a weird person.

Anyway I'm lazy to pack my bag -.- &I must go find the weird thing that connects my other mp3 to the com and transfer songs into it too.

My air conditioner broke down and it sucks having to sleep only with the fan ):

I can't bring myself to feel anything. How do you even do it?

I want to know how it feels to be truly alive.

&I'm screwed.

Breakeven

I'm quite happy now which is very good! HAHA I hope it stays this way all the way till next week but quite impossible.

Btw mr chan the farewell bouquet is quite weird LOL looks like something from an office decoration. Gosh I don't like flowers ._.

AND 3H WILL OWN EVERYONE TMR :D

Just because you think something is real, doesn't make it the truth.

How many times must I repeat myself huh.

&You're as much of a hypocrite as the rest of the world. Admit it.

So,

is this really what you want?


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Chua I need to talk again urgh ):

Turn it off.

I should have known, shouldn't I? I wish I can get back that feeling.

Airplanes

I can't wait for tues with charlie and wed(!!!!!). Ohohoh and I think annoying orange is quite funny hahaha my sense of humour is screwed but aiya whatever.

&OKAY ANGELA LET'S GO OUT :D

Mugging session

Was in a terrible mood this morning. I fell asleep during prac. I have no idea how I did it.

But then my mood became better afterwards. Charlie mugging session was very useful even though so little people turned up. There was like 4 guys and 2 girls at the beginning -.- Really very beneficial to go mug with smart people LOL. Thanks zhenyun weiquan and wym! Happy like mad cos I finally understand mole concept :D

I feel like going mugging now cos I'm very motivated hahaha k bye.

Charlie

I shall post properly after the exams.

Anyway today Charlie failed study date+celebration! I love Charlie hmm (: Today was so fun. I came up with all the dares hahaha not bad right! I think very fun leh even though we didn't study at all and we were all drenched from head to toe. But still :D

But then something went wrong at the end with some people yup so wasn't that good :/ I hope it'll be okay soon.

Anw,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AH QING AND HUI GEOK!!! (L)(L)

Will it kill you all to use just 30 seconds and 5 cents to bloody reply my message?

Another failed Charlie dinner LOL. But it wasn't as failed as last week. Still got some fun parts. But Tues was very very fun :D

I think history and physics are screwed lol I didn't manage to complete both of them.

I'm in a very good mood today HAHA.

The world slows down

When you love someone more than he loves you, you'll do anything to switch the scales. You dress the way you think he'd like you to dress. You pick up his favourite figures of expression. You tell yourself that if you re-create yourself in his image, he will crave you the way you crave him.
-Jodi Picoult

I love her books gosh but I read finish all the nice ones alr ):

&I think I'm seriously becoming stupider day by day.

Courage

I wonder how long it'll be before I actually dare to talk to you again.

Anyway today study session was not really helpful LOL I slacked a lot :/ Ohwell I shall not go out to eat tmr but instead go straight home to mug.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING & WEIQUAN!

I hate this part

Even though it was long ago, I still feel so fucking disgusted with myself.

Oh and Charlie dinner ytd was disappointing ttm. I can't believe I waited one whole week for it only to be let down like this. Seriously felt like shit when I got home.

I need motivation to get me through next week.

Oh and spec course is coming soon.

Ever just as sure the sun will rise.

Is the feeling worse when someone disappoints you, or when you know you've disappointed someone?

c-ulmination.bs


Diappointment. It's weighing me down.

When the heart of this starcrossed voyager beats in time with yours.

"I wonder what happens when you offer yourself to someone, and they open you, only to discover you are not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same."
—Jodi Picoult (My Sister's Keeper)


Whatever mom I don't care anymore.

Anyway my title makes no sense lol it's so random.

I've been spending 40 min on bloody 1a of ws 6a. WTF WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. I even asked for help alr but I still can't get the answer. I really feel so pissed off at myself. Why did i keep sleeping in class!!!! >(

I think I'm quite stupid actually zz.

World behind my wall

I'm starting to understand indices and physics and chemistry. But I still keep sleeping in lessons.

Can't wait for Charlie dinners in fri hmmm (: Oh and I think the stripping and assembling of rifle quite difficult oh no.

P.S. I like the smell of my deo LOL compared to others.

I'm so pissed off now I'm eating lots of caramel popcorn cos I've no chocolate at home but fuck it's not working even though the popcorn is damn sweet. So I'm going to grow fat oh joy.

&I'm such a bitch when I'm pissed off.

Come on Jasmine snap out of it ):

When the truth slaps you right in the face,

well what can you do?

I'm starting to question myself all over again.

Charlie (:

I don't know how I'm even supposed to react but lol I don't really care anymore.

Outing w Charlie today. Was quite excited at first but tbh it was quite terrible at the beginning actually. No one was really into bball ): Or badminton for that matter. I was so bored LOL.

Then we went to eat but I didn't have the mood to eat.

After that we took bus to yuhua cc and HAHA I think badminton was very fun! :D &We went to play bball afterwards which was actually quite boring too because everyone was already very tired :/

Overall still not bad uh but more people please turn up next time. Planning for the thing is seriously not easy. Don't just like don't go cos you don't feel like it.

The sky is the limit

All the uniforms look so yellow LOL.

Yesterday we had another charlie dinner and Jian Ting kept blushing cos of Geraldine! O: HAHAHA cute much? Let's have more of charlie dinners (:

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVAN!! :D

Even though I just got to know you this year I think you're an awesome friend hahaha have an awesome birthday! :D

I feel so detached from the world today.

IMT

Today was awesome even though I was late for school. LOL I was still quite happy cos for the first time I felt like I'd enough sleep. Assembly should seriously start at 8 instead.

Oh maths was actually quite easy but I didn't study so I screwed up some parts -.- Aiya whatever it's my own fault anyway. CHAMPS was so fun. I really really think 3H is awesome! &We're not changing classes next year yay :D :D I left halfway during chem and xiong looks so exasperated gosh so funny. I like his face leh it has so many weird expressions.

IMT was O: So cool. &There was this damn shuai sir omg. I must control my hormones HAHAHAHA according to VT. Oops don't go read the white part.

I love Charlie (L) Outing this sun! :D &I shall not talk about yesterday already cos it makes me ): and I don't want to be sad.

P.S. Wah crap I still sound damn childish LOL.

I realised I sound so childish in my previous posts. I shall try to be more mature sounding tomorrow when I blog about today. This sounds weird lol and oh man it's already 12 am and I haven't study. Ah and fri got compo+letter!!!! I went to tell people it's compre gosh but I forgot who they were :/

Today was a terrible day after 3pm. But peining's accident during lunch was so funny HAHAHAHA. &Somehow it managed to spread to the whole class within 10 min. &We told xiao Q too! O: Quite bad uh but peining doesn't mind I think (: I shall try not to do anything embarrassing in 3H.

I love my seat :D Come on mrs yap change amanda back!

fuck. seriously.

I'M SO AMUSED BY THIS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Valentine

Life have been great for the whole of last week :D

Friday we had our 2.4 and I survived HAHA! Even though the timing sucks like mad cos I was practically walking. Thanks timothy for pei-ing me for the whole run :D We even got the exact same timing LOL.

Sat was affirmation ceremony heh (: The uniforms look quite nice, especially number 1 land and air. Even though the dinner after the affirmation ceremony quite sian but LOL nvm. I love Charlie!! :D

Yesterday at J's house was so fun hahahaha :D :D

Anyway today I didn't fail hist!!!! I'm so amazed I thought for sure I was going to fail. Jon that pig got full marks >( Ah well he deserves it. Oh and 3H is so good in maths HAHA we're 2nd in the cohort! O: but I'm still quite scared for my maths results ):

Oh fuck friday is chi compo test.

Bright Hazard

He looks like some handy man after being coloured ): Confirm can't win HAHAHA but nvm I still think he's cute cos I drew him.


Jonathan have such a fat hand LOL. Guess which one isit? >) Anw the chocs/candies were damn nice HAHA Mr Ong is the awesome-st maths teacher ever :D

Ah 2.4 km tomorrow please let me complete it without dying.

P.S. According to Amanda, (::::) is the underside of a female dog HAHAHAHA WTF.

Somewhere, somehow

I don't know what I want anymore. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now.

Gah. Pms?

The only thing I'm looking forward to now are tuesdays and fridays ):

OH FUCK WHAT HAVE I DONE ._.

We all learn to make mistakes

January: Haiti
February: Chile
April: northwestern Mexico

When you put it this way it's quite scary huh.

Today wasn't that bad after all but physics lesson makes me depressed ):

Shadow of the day

Jon lost his phone partially cos of me :/ I feel so guilty but ohwell he's getting it back tmr gosh who is so noob to leave their phone in school.


I hate sundays ): &I already can feel the monday blues coming on urgh.

Why is a raven like a writing desk?

Am watching S factor now omg who came up with this shit LOL O:



Debates HAHAHA. &They hired such professional judges.

April.

Sometimes you don't need water to feel like you're drowning.

April's fool today was so (Y)(Y) 3H is so extreme HAHA we swapped classes with 3G early in the morn but the prank failed ):

&We managed to trick 2 teachers after that with different pranks. Hilarious LOL but why Xiao Q never come!!!! D;

Napfa was like shit though ): Oh my head started hurting like #%^#@$ during shuttle run and it's still hurting now zz so irritating.

April is here already gosh so fast!

J.

Oh diary of a wimpy kid is quite funny HAHA. I think the main character is quite cute heh! :D Maybe he'll grow up to become some shuai ge.



Anw mom cheer up about the seating arrangement thing cos one good thing is that you're sitting with jojo (I can't rmb his real name haha) and not the prc! I've nothing against prcs btw I just happen to not know her name.

Ooops it's almost 10 and I haven't had my dinner yet :/

Replies

JIAXIN: HAHA nope never cry!

Wan Qing: Ooooh hi Ah Qing :D

JUNHUI: LOL maybe. Timothy laughs at everything hahaha.

jiaweN: Hi stalker >) I still've your 20 cents LOL.

Wei Ni: YES CHARLIE'10! :D

Expectations

I wonder how much it hurts when this was being tattooed on her.

Cca today made me ): I suddenly thought of last year when most bravo'09 girls will go je and sit there to drink bbt and eat carrot cake/sausage etc, then chat about random topics and just enjoy ourselves. When staff was speaking I felt something in me hurting so bad and I was like trying to hold back my tears until I saw alicia cry then I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I'm so scared of our lives as cadets ending, I know I'll miss it like mad. And the thing is, it's going to end in less than 3 months. This time, I'm going to make sure I try my best and know that at the end of the day I didn't let anyone down because ncc to me is more than a cca.

I LOVE NCC&CHARLIE'10!!!! (L) (L)

I don't regret joining ncc. Never will either.

I don't find this touching at all.

I feel like puking now zz wth.

The smell of wine and cheap perfume.

HAHA.

A walk to remember turned out to be so disappointing. Not really very nice. I guess it's supposed to be romantic and touching but the storyline is just simply too sudden ):

Anyway during cid I was quite irritated during the lecture thanks to someone. Seriously what's with the big reactions? But I think our idea for the pavilion is quite cool heh can't wait to build it :D

P.S. I've no idea why but Timothy keeps laughing at me ._. My face got that funny meh LOL.

A walk to remember

I'm going to watch this now hahaha. That is, if I don't keep getting distracted. Hope it'll be nice. I watched too many sad movies already, must watch something romantic.

Anyway, the perks of being a wallflower is a nice book. The ending is quite unexpected. LOL and it's the first book I have read this month. Oh I hope I don't fail history even though I gave such terrible points without much elaboration and evidence. For the unemployment rate it's supposed to be 6 mil but I wrote it as 1 mil cos I was rushing through. Maths test on tues! D:

Tag replies

JIAXIN: HAHA yup it was fun :D

Wei Ni: Ya it sucks not understanding anything in class!!! D:

Suhui: HI SAW SUHUI!! >)

Si Lei: Haha hi! :)

Wei Ni: LOL we can both have screwed ankles together ):

Wan Qing: HAHAHA I feel so noob for believing you >( Heh only thing I enjoyed about geog was the project minus the rashes :D

Memories

This day last year was spent with Suhui, Ah Qing and Shihui. I wonder if they still remember?

HAHA a bit weird to suddenly remember this.

&I think I've no hw this weekend! :D I think.

Wildfire

After eating half a plate of noodles from the vegetarian stall I feel nauseous whenever I look at food now ._. I'm never buying from there again I feel so disgusted that I haven't even had my dinner yet. Zz it seriously looks like something pigs will eat ahhh how did I even manage to finish half a plate ):

Anyway, I think number 1 is really cool. The thing is so bloody chio gosh. Oh and I'm wearing number 5 something. 5j I think? Shall go try it on later. Sure will look damn weird HAHA and my bro will laugh at me after the affirmation ceremony is over -.-

I realise my ankle is starting to hurt again shit will it always be this way just cos I sprained it once?

I feel so stressed now I want to scream. History just became my worst enemy.

Physics group (Y)

HAHAHA I feel so amused after school today while discussing physics. Trying to anyway. Ended up Marvin taught me physics :D I'm not emo about physics alr! :D &Then a group of us ended up just sitting there and chatting O: LOL.

Okayy but my mom just told me something that pisses me off. WTF ARE PARENTS TEACHING THEIR KIDS THIS DAY HUH? Stupid bitchy kid, go look into a bloody mirror first before coming up with stupid comments. If I was there, I swear I would slap her.

Today

During physics I was so upset that I almost cried because I realised that I've totally no idea what Mr Tan is talking about ): I feel so stupid zzz and it's like everyone could understand. Why can't I be pro too?! D: &I still can't understand the assignment gosh. I feel damn guilty towards Marvin :/

But cca was quite fun when we played captain's ball. Bon reminded me of Xiao Qi in year 1 LOL when he kept tucking in his pe shirt until damn high cos he thought it makes him more handsome.

Voice call

Sis: What you doing -alot of noise-
Jon: Eh go away!!!! I on voice call now!! Shut up go away go away!!

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF!!!!

Now I hear her scolding him omg this is really hilarious.

Once upon a time there was a mirror...

which will make whoever who lies in front of it disappear. So one day,

Amanda said "I think I'm smart" and -poof- she disappeared.

Jonathan said "I think I'm smart" and he didn't disappear.

Jasmine went "I think..." and -poof- she disappeared.

DO YOU GET IT?! OMG HAHAHAHA FOR ONCE JON IS QUITE FUNNY >) AND AND AND! HIS HAIR!!! HAHAHA I was laughing at it the whole day. Oops so mean but really damn funny.

He went to the hairdresser and then,

Hairdresser: 你要spiky?
Jon: Oh 我要低.

cos he heard it as "你要高低?" HAHAHAHAHAHA and the hairdresser went ahead to screw up his hair cos she thought he wanted spiky 低.

Angela and Chua is funny also HAHAHA.

I'm super happy today :D But now have to do hw.

Replies!

Shihui: Yes mom? :D
JUNHUI: YA LOL his own little fan club O: Ok linked :D
Vivan: YESSS YAY! :D
Guest: HAHAHA Angela thanks :D It's ok lah!
Weely: Where got! I only feel sad cos the guy the leg got chopped off.
ANGELALALALA: Ya some vids can't ): Or isit LJ can't embed?
JIAXIN: Ya Chua I knew hahaha but idk whether she wants me to link leh ):

OMG HAHA I FINALLY COMPLETED MY HIST. Have been doing from 4 to 11 gosh and in the end the essay I came up with is so sucky :/ I hope it's not graded -prays-

I haven't done my la speech, my chi, my chem, the physics project LOL but ohwell I'm going to go bathe and then sleep. Tmr then chiong. The new timetable is awesome cos it allows me to do so yayy :D

We're changing seats tmr though ):

Hurt

Christina Aguilera
Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when i saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but i walked away
If only i knew what i know today
Ooh ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing i wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes i wanna call you
But i know you won't be there

Ooh, i'm sorry for blaming you
For everything i just couldn't do
And i've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days i feel broke inside, but i wouldn't admit
Sometimes i just wanna hide, cause it's you i miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me i was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who i am?
There's nothing i wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you are looking back

Yeah

Ooh, i'm sorry for blaming you
For everything i just couldn't do
And i've hurt myself
Oo-ooh

If i had just one more day
I would tell you how much that
I missed you since you went away

Oo-ooh
It's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything i just couldn't do
And i've hurt myself...

...by hurting
you

Omg awesome song! ♥ Go watch the mv itself cos embedding is disabled.

Shit I'm supposed to be doing hw now ):

Lift me up.

FSD comp today.

In the end we'd to perform in the rain, quite cool heh. Girls got 2nd yup but good job to both girls&guys because I think we did equally well! (:

How to train a dragon made me giddy like mad and the 3D glasses kept dropping off cos too big alr. It was quite ok but I fell asleep wtf during the climax somemore >( Weely said she almost cried during the movie HAHAHA embarrassing much?

Who share my woes ):

I wanted to do pp/hist/chem/speech and god knows whatever hw I have but I ended up getting distracted and my eyes are so dry they're hurting like shit now I better go sleep :/

I only completed maths oh shit I'm dead. Even if I minus off all the chi hw (which I'm going to do so anyway LOL) I still have so much hw I feel like I'm being buried alive.

#03

Group fiiiiiiiiiiiive :D (minus danzel&jiabao)

I was the group ic together with Vivan&Peining :D Interacting with kids is super tiring but then again they're so damn cute it makes me melt. Awww hahaha, even though my cute guy wasn't anywhere in sight.

I've no idea why but I suddenly feel this overwhelming sense of nostalgia. I guess some things can't be helped.

Dry your eyes

I hate girls who goes "Ehhhhh you very bad leh~~ -pouts-" TO EVERY SINGLE GUY that talks to them. Disgusting ttm and it's like you're degrading yourself. This is not targeted at anyone k HAHAHA I just suddenly thought of this.

Anyway, HO XIUMEI IDK IF YOU'LL SEE AFTER YOUR CAMP BUT CHEER UP K! You scared me just now ):

CIP TMR OMG MY CUTE GUY (L)

Replies!

Suhui: HAHA yes you must be over the moon! >)
PHOEBE.: Hiiii :D
Vivan: But he very cute right! HAHAHA I shall go be his gf :D

Merry go round.

This is like the busiest year of my life. I've been busy from jan all the way till now and I'm still going to be busy till the end of the year ahhhh because of my tendency to sign up for things without thinking >( Wlao now can't back out already.

Cip today was O:

I only can remember got this guy who keeps doing his sexy dance, this super chio girl (!!! bloody nice bangs) and this hardworking plus cute guy who kept practicing the sun dance. Oh well. Still got a lot of mad cute kids but I can't remember ): The rest of the cip was just me screaming like some mad bitch with Lynette LOL.

In the end all the kids only learnt like 50 secs of the dance. Damn fail.

&The hardworking guy ended up being emo cos he got stage fright then forgot the moves sigh ): Can tell he got high expectations. I like him omg can't wait to see him on thurs :D :D :D Too deprived of cute guys already HAHAHA.

Cute much? :D

Peining is cute too HAHAHA. Z I hate my hair ._.

Got this girl asked Marvin for his msn LOL hilarious I thought she wanted to hit on him. In the end she asked for mine too omg the advancement of technology O:

a picture speaks a thousand words

Something I would like to be next time would be a photographer and capture all the pretty things in the world.

:D

So cliche but true HAHA.

Dear mom

Being snubbed by you was one of the most hurting things that happened this year.

But you wouldn't know that, would you?

Headache.

I'm a having a headache now urgh so irritating.

&I hate people talking to me about hw. Esp if they're asking me when I'm going to start doing. I'm going to start doing it whenever I feel like it -.- None of your business seriously. &Stop sounding like you're very wise and all those shit. It pisses me off. Makes me doesn't want to reply you even more.

Not.
Cute.
At.
All.

Wtf I just realise I CAN'T GO OUT DURING MARCH HOLS. Cos of fsd. Oh lord. I feel so fucking tired of life gimme a break please ):

I hope I don't have mon blues tmr. &I'm not going to care about march camp dance alr zzz so bloody retarded.

Belle of the Boulevard

Down in a local bar
Out on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar is savin' you from sinkin'
It's a long way down...it's a long way

Back like you never broke
You tell a dirty joke
He touches your leg, and thinks he's gettin' close
For now you let him

Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

In all your silver rings
And all your silken things
The song that you softly sing is keepin' you from breakin'
It's a long way down... it's a long way

Back here you never lost
You shake the shivers off
You take a drink to get your courage up
Can you believe it?

Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard...
For the Belle of the Boulevard

Please hold on...it's alright
Please hold on...it's alright
Please hold on

Down in a local bar
Out on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar is saving you

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
Lemme dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Don't turn away
Time to dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Come and dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

idk why but I interpret this I'll interpret it as a song to comfort a prostitute. I wish I took elit ): Chua go interpret this!

The red part is my favourite. Omg it sounds _________. Sympathetic? Knowing? Omg idk how to express it. Gives me the shivers. Fucking nice song (L)

OMG WHERE ARE YOU DADDY I NEED FOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ): I'm updating too much LOL.

HAHAHA

omg talking to jon is so amusing HAHAHA I want to die from laughing.

His idea of aym cosplaying LOL. &He sent me a clip of him singing (?) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA fucking funny can't forget the voice.

I'M FUCKING ANGRY K YOU'RE BLOODY NOT AMUSING DON'T EVEN BOTHER TO TRY ASSHOLE.

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY.

FUCKING PISSED TO BE EXACT.

Z I shall think about xiong and not get so angry.

Funeral blues

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

W.H. Auden

It's a long way down

School was quite boring as usual. But omg I got 10/12 for hist? SURPRISINGLY OMG LOL IT'S SECOND HIGHEST IN THE WHOLE COHORT WOOHOO. &Amanda was quite pissed cos she got 8. Lame lol who ask her think so highly of herself. Shhh chua >)

After Fsd we went crazy HAHAHA. Became damn high. Singing, screaming, shouting and laughing :D I'm so noisy when I'm high. Scary O:

Geraldine's dare before fsd was hilarious too LOL she scared some guy till he knocked over his chair.

:)

Still, I'm not amused by you.

Go, mozzie.

Sometimes I cry for no reason.

You know I really wonder how come I turned out this way sometimes. Tuesday was such a sucky day I hate myself for being such a bitch. I despise the way I miss being in a clique. I'm really starting to dislike the person I'm turning into. There are some days I feel like a huge part of me is ebbing away. How am I going to do this anymore huh?

This emptiness scares me. I should stop bitching when I'm no better myself.

I don't feel anymore passion for fsd either because I joined because of the competition and now that I think about it, it doesn't really sit well on my conscience. I'm fucking screwed.

Maybe it'll be better after the hols.

Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky

I actually didn't have monday blues today O: Was laughing till my stomach ached during recess. Gossiping club ftw LOL even though I think I'm like the one w the most gossip.

After school went to eat w Vivan&Amanda but ended up half of 3H was at macs too. &Marvin is so damn cute lol he actually bought me an ice cream because of the bet he made with me. Faint I was just kidding.

I'm damn scared of march camp ):

It's stupid to get angry over such a stupid thing -.-

Why don't you just go ahead and say you hate me.

Is it wrong for me to feel nothing at all? ):

I don't feel like I deserve it at all. Zomg what's wrong with me.

But RVNCC OWNS (Y)

I can't believe I screwed up. BUT I'M DAMN PROUD OF NCC (Y)(Y)(Y) GOLD GOLD GOLD KKK NEED TO IRON NO4 for FSD TMR GOSH JY EVERYONE! :D &&Lessons were damn fun today.

3 hateful children :) WTF HAHAHA I THINK CINDY ONG ACTUALLY LIKES US.

Xiuson :D

Fucking starving at home now. Mommmmm where are youuuuuuuuu? ):

Skipped fsd today to study but it's not really working. You've no how terrible it feels not being able to solve the maths questions in front of me. Art is starting next week wtf I hope there's no seetoh. 3 bloody terms is enough. &wym don't try to even convince me to forgive him k I wouldn't. &I bloody never will. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. If I ever become a psychopath from studying too much the 1st person I'll kill is him. The world will be a better place without him.

On a lighter note,

AM DAMN PROUD OF XIUSON TODAY (Y) K LOVELOVELOVE HAHAHA. Everyone is amused by our dance lol and I came up w the weird moves LOLOL. I feel like I achieved something :D

But Amc made me :/ Can't believe I paid money to feel stupid.

Wlao really very hungry can't stand it shall go look for food -.- I feel like some mouse lol still need to search for food.

Tomorrow we're getting back chem I think omg howwwwwww. Fucking don't want to fail I studied so damn hard! &physics tooo urgh

I'm feeling awesome now cos I went home w stiffany ziying and ling jw plus his friend after cca today :D LOL sch was pretty shitty though w the stupid impromptu la speech i had to make -.- &Alll the super boring lessons plus fsd being so screwed because I was tired but nvm heh everything is fine now.

I think I'm such a mean bitch :/

Wtf my life is damn unlucky last week I was sick and this week I've a sprained plus swollen ankle FML. WHY CAN'T I EVER GET A GOOD WEEKEND OF REST HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?

&I'm fucking getting fatter and fatter. NEED TO STOP EATING GOSH.

Tests are coming up soon I shall read finish my book and go study. I swear >(

Today is such a sucky day
): Sigh god probably thought yesterday was too good for me. Everyone seems to suck now -.-Stop sms-ing me lah wtf and copying what I say. Somemore only keep talking about yourself. Ego much? Irritating x 1000 esp since I'm in a bad mood.

Because I believed in you

HAHAHA NO I'M NOT EMO-ING TODAY COS TODAY WAS AWESOME.

CLASS TEE, DANCE AND CHAMPS LOL. YR'S BEAT FRIEND TIMMY HAHAHA AND SAWADICUP! &WEI YANG IS HILARIOUS LOL I TOLD HIM COLD WATER IS GOOD FOR LOSING WEIGHT AND HE DRANK LIKE ONE BOTTLE PER LESSON. METROSEXUAL! LOL. && HAHAHA SHIT IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE K IN A SUPER GOOD MOOD NOW.

After cca was so embarrassing sigh weely tey stop suaning him in front of me gosh where am I going to hide my face ever again!

I LOVE 3H HAHAHA.

Sighhhh so tired the tv is showing memoirs of a geisha but I watch before already. Sucks. I need to do hw but I can't bring myself to. I should go sleep ): How the hell am I supposed to do ifc mutual thing huhhh. I'm screwed on fri.

&Wtf sms-ed the whole class for the stupid cid file thing till my hands feel numb from typing all the numbers. K I hate being a treasurer today.

Sometimes I really want to tell you to piss off but I'm afraid of making people upset. Z I'm becoming too nice -.-

HAHAHA I think no one knows my blog. Unless Chua Jiaxin you're reading this? I can't tell anyone my blog url anyway cos idk it I just grabbed it off the dictionary. LOL fail.

K today was fun. Ah qing! (L)

I'm really missing you.

I think I should:

1) Find sb to help me w my studies oh god.
2) Finish my homework ahhhh


Wlao super sad I'm like thinking about studies on CNY wtf -.- CNY sucks without hw all the same I only got 2 red packets and both are from my parents and I didn't get to go out at all, no family outings, no visiting of relatives no nothing. But I got good food for the past 3 days :> Am getting fat ahhh.

I can't wait for later w ah qing. And I think I should sleep alr lol I'm waking up 6 and a half hours later. Singapore is really bloody small though not much places to go. Not only that it's bloody humid too. My hair is screwed up.

I can feel all the bloody air being squeezed out of me and the tears gathering at the corners of my eyes. Again and again. For no fucking reason most of the time.

):

I can't stand people being sad even though I'm like sad 1/3 of every month. I can't stand people being too nice to me either. I don't think I deserve it sometimes. Fml I just want to be happy. Is it really that hard huh?

Tired tired tired.

Wlao stop complaining about every fucking thing under the sun lah. Z no wonder you fell out w your clique last time. Irritating much?

What hurts the most is that you're never sorry towards me. It's so bloody obvious you care for her more than me.

Maybe I'm jealous. I claim I don't care but fuck I still feel like my heart is being ripped into pieces. You're supposed to be my best friend but where are you now?

Because the thing is that you've been taking me for granted all along & I'm so bloody sick of it. Zzz am in a damn bad mood now, seriously fuck off I hate being used like this.

Hate how I can't tell anyone at all because frankly I don't think anyone care. Or maybe it's just because people judge too much.

I think I'm a failed angel ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Stupid Jonathan you're going to make a lousy thief next time! >( Z I suck at acting.

But today still quite fun lah even though I don't remember what we did LOL. The decos super nice though. &I can understand maths omg :D I found my love for maths again yay. &&&&Tomorrow don't care I'm just going to wear orientation tee even though Vivian say very shao xing LOL dk how to spell.

Get well soon Mag :D even though you're not going to see this. No one reads my blog anymore ):

Shi Hui: -points to me- You like this jiejie?
Jing Lun: -sitting on my lap- Yes! :D

Awww so sweet HAHAHA I love you too uncle Jing Lun!

I wished that 3 years ago I didn't choose RV.

Eyecandy!

Okay HAHAHA shall go do my 100 % history assignment now.

Today was fun even though I didn't buy any clothes ): Sigh ok bye.

I seriously hate people who ask stupid questions ALL THE TIME. (keyword) Goddamnit.

"Does the giant in the question refer to the giant ionic crystal lattice?"

OBVIOUSLY IT DOES DUH. Or else what? The size of your ass isit wtf. Bloody use your brains and open your damn notes to look and stop asking such stupid questions and expect me to answer you nicely. Even if don't open notes I bet anyone who bother to go read the qns properly would know it's the crystal thing.

Already am being very nice by taking out my hw to look while I'm eating dinner just to answer your questions.

&You still dare to ask me wtf is my problem. I should be asking you that instead.

Z BAD MOOD. Shouldn't have on my com at all. Some people really lack logic in their brains. Whatever I'm just going to block and ignore. Makes my life easier.

The more I sleep, the more dizzy I get when I wake up. Omg life sucks. Never sleep enough also feel dizzy.

But my fringe is nice today. Too bad I'm lazy to go out.

Silent grave

I feel super retarded this morning. Chiong-ed around the whole school trying to do everything at once O: I think Jiahui&me shocked a lot of people in 3A LOL. Cos we were hiding behind the door and waiting to shout and while we wait got people come out. HAHAHA super funny.

Thanks ah qing :D I hope I'm not allergic again z the rashes really very scary last time ):

&&&When xiao qiao comes in, everyone flees to the toilet (Y) Even the guys omg LOL like some parade like that. When we run for warm ups during PE we'll cheer together too HAHA Natasha. I think 3H is super entertaining.

Anywyay HAPPY BIRTHDAY FREDERICA & JIELING :D

Jieling is super lucky O: I think the birthday song got sang 5 times in total?

Omg this is super random but Justin Xiong is really super funny HAHAHAHAHAHAHA laugh until I stomachache omg where got guy so auntie one! O: LOL HE'S REALLY DAMN FUNNY! HAHAHA shit I'm laughing at my computer screen now cos I keep thinking of his face LOLOLOL. &His threats are always ignored LOL. OMG. I. NEED. TO. STOP. LAUGHING.

(breathes)

P.S. Miss Hia remembers me omg LOL WHY! She said that Dorothy looks like me O: Who's she?

3.14159

Even though I felt like :/ school was fun today HAHAHA. I swear I'll rethink before eating KFC chicken anymore cos the oil on the chicken resembles those on xiao qiao's face. &&&I passed my maths! :D

Am eating strawberries now (L)

I'm so tired I feel like I'm dying. &My bloody headache is killing me. I feel like I just got ran over by a car omg ):

Two is better than one (Y)

I find child pageants disturbing. Why would anyone want to make their child look like life size replicas of barbies? Aren't they supposed to be children?

Scary ):

Omg good complexion.

Bella+Edward= fugly

LOL twilight still sucks.

Went out w Suhui, Ah qing and Mom today after cca (L)

Today cca was not very tiring, but even if it was tiring like mad I wouldn't have changed my mind about going out. AAR was interesting lol.

I finally can sleep till 5pm tomorrow wtf weekends are so nan de. I hope my eyebags will finally disappear.

Sprained my angle at the drinks stall today. Bloody pain. It's ok now luckily. Thanks huili and uh jingyee(?) Today was fun though during practice (: After zhen yun got over being high LOL.

My bro is at the boys like girls concert now w my dad. I hope it's fun. Am too tired to go ):

Beyond expectations

Omg this is what I call talent. (Y)

I think I've finally become more mature. Lol.

over and over again

Because you've been lying to yourself all along.

I NEED MY SLEEP OMG. &Why can't there be 48 hours in a day instead ):

Easy come, easy go

Yes, no? Decisions decisions :/

Why're you even breaking your own heart? O:

Oh. My. God.

They know? :/

Wlao am getting pissed w my new phone cos idk how to operate it properly. Irritating ):

I'm not blogging anymore until I'm much more free. I like the colours in this blogskin lol super bright and random. Make my eyes hurt when I look at it.

Anyway, Blackberry Curve or LG JOY? Am going out to buy later, need to make up my mind fast ):

&3 years later it's happening again.

I love you more then words can ever say

I finally understand why I cried so much the past few nights LOL. Was pms-ing.

Gossip sessions after fsd is so fun (Y) I think the part Bs very cute. Gosh I'm so glad I joined even though it's super time consuming and I've to sleep late everyday. &Weely told me that she saw my pri sch picture before. OMG I WANT TO DIG A HOLE AND HIDE MYSELF INSIDE.

Anw super tired today, was falling asleep during lessons ):

You miss everything but me.

My days are filled with ncc nowadays. I like fsd lol very interesting yup trying to perfect the moves and all those. It's the only thing I like in my life right now anyway because I feel like I'm actually achieving something.

I think I'm becoming more quiet and reserved. Very difficult to open up to people nowadays &I kept crying these few nights for no reason and my heart will feel like it's breaking O: Actually I think is the stress but today is diff haha cos I'm not going to let myself cry.

Zomg wtf I realise I'm becoming uglier everyday.