Everytime I come online I'll feel damn sad like my heart is going to stop beating any moment. It's so suffocating I don't how to explain ):

I can feel a little bit of me dying everyday.

It's never going to be the same again. I knew it.

I'm so fickle minded lol. Keep locking and unlocking.

I'm suddenly worried about the A lvls subj thing. I freaking need to study. The maths ws 1a is so damn hard omg I'm stuck at qns 4 T.T

Go knock yourself against the damn wall.

Omg super pissed. 2nd week of school and I alr found sb who dislikes me. Wtf the thing that pisses me off is that I never once talked to her. WHAT THE FU*K GIVES HER THE RIGHT TO DISLIKE ME HUH I ASK YOU. Was even nice to her can, smiling at her and all those. Am not going to do that anymore I tell. Dislike jiu dislike lor. Like I give a shit LOL since I don’t know her. But zzz feel damn yuan wang wtf. &I thought I was a bitch. Didn't even judge her so quickly can omg what's wrong w the people nowadays.

LAME TTM.

Omg the thought of her is getting on my nerves.

Zomg I look very scary? O: I really wish I can like time travel to the aug or sth so that I'll be able to fully appreciate my class right now. HAHAHA omg I'm damn lame ._.

Omg shit I'm starting to not understand maths. I need to revise and stop procrastinating like I always do. Later end up like last year chem like that. At first only a bit don't understand then afterwards just totally gave up on it and kept stoning in chem lessons. Heng I mugged or else sure fail. Shit damn scared for tmr :/

Liar liar pants on fire

I really don't think I can do this anymore. Life like this is so bloody tiring I feel like I'm dying everytime I reach home T.T

Omg I can't decode what phone to get. Corby? I like the colours lol very bright. But I spoil things easily -.-

Because you're everything that I'm not that's why I like you in the first place. That's bloody lame I'm going to stop liking wusses.

Like we used to.

1st week:

Actually 3H is ok. But it's super quiet (I miss richie's stupid qns during every lesson) and I only dare to talk to a few people sitting near me cos the rest in their class/cca cliques very intimidating ): But actually Amanda, Jon & I also stick tgt. J don't want to go talk to the guys -.-But mostly everyone seems nice yup but that doesn't make everything better.

I miss how everyone will be copying off each other like mad in the morn in 2F and how every time there's a break I can always randomly find sb to go to the toilet w me. &How comfortable 2F feels. Shit. &I miss the classroom and the noob looking noticeboard (pink w purple dots LOL) w decos that've been there since like forever&the super messy floor that no one really bothers to sweep&the teacher's table w the hideous flower plastic thingie that covers it. I miss my seat and the people sitting near me. I miss how noisy we were and how ruyan's impromptu speeches sound like. I miss how xiao qi will act pro in chi. I miss how a lot of us will be bs in the morn when sb offs the light and ask us to go down for assembly. I miss the atmosphere of the class. I miss how everyone like knows everyone and how everyone behaves. I miss 2F. It's super terrible missing something that's not there anymore. &Since we're in the new campus I can't even go back to revisit the old class. Super sad. I really thought I wouldn't miss 2F that much you know since I'll still be seeing all of 2F classmates in sch. I was so wrong.

Z am writing down everything so I can read next time and remember. You know I totally forgot about my pri 6 class? Super scary it's like I don't even remember most of my classmate's names. I don't want that to happen to 2F.

Am bloody scared of xiao qiao cos she seems to hate people who suck in chi. My life in chi lessons is going to be a living hell from next week. If she makes me read out loud, I swear I'll just drop dead in front of her. Gosh I miss zhang lao shi T.T At least she knows my standard and wouldn't get too pissed. &The people in 2F also knows how much I suck in chi so I wouldn't feel as embarrassed as reading out loud in front of people who're mostly strangers. Zomg. I rather be sucky in english and average in chi instead of the other way round.

Ok I'm done. If anyone even managed to read all the way till here the person must be really bored.