Day 10: someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down.

Jenny Suk! (L) I like their version better.

First day of school was okay. I wish the days will pass faster though. My hair is screwed now zz I want it to grow ):

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Dear LJW,

I've no idea why I'm writing this letter to you LOL! Ah well I do miss sitting with you though ): I know you used to read my blog HAHA luckily now you don't anymore.

Oh you know I used to have this terrible impression of you in year 1. Omg you were such a terrible person -.- You were always bullying Joseph and you didn't work hard for anything gosh. There was this one time I saw you dancing and singing some weird jay chou song by accident gosh I still can't get the memory out of my mind. It was very funny HAHAHAHAHA but quite disturbing as well.

BUT! I got to know you better in year 2 and I realised that you're actually quite a nice person and very smart as well. Hmm my face was totally like ._. when I saw the new sitting arrangement LOL. But then as time passed I started liking my seat hahaha I thought that it was very cozy :D Still do btw.

I can't really remember what I even talked to you about gosh I think most of them were bullshit HAHAHA so embarrassing. I remember there was this one time I pinned up my fringe because of spot check and asked for your opinion because I'd no mirror and you told me I looked screwed -.- Wtf I had a phobia of pinning up my fringe for a whole week after that!!! Ohoh and you always looked so embarrassed when I had to stand up and read some random Chinese passage. Even though it was quite embarrassing at that time but now that I think back it's quite funny LOL. Your expression = (Y)

You were really quite nice at times I remember that there were many times when I became very upset because I felt stupid but you encouraged me (: Even though it didn't really cheer me up but it doesn't matter. Oh and I used to ask you to teach me hw and I think you taught me a lot of wrong stuff HAHAHAHA.

Gosh I've a lot of memories of you doing noob things haha. I hope you're happy with your desk partner(s) now HAHAHA I bet they aren't as awesome as me. Just kidding.

Jasmine :D

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I think I HAHAHA too much.

Gosh HAHAHAHA.

Day 9: someone you wish you could meet

Dear Chuck Bass,

Looking at all your pictures make me want to watch gossip girl 3 immediately gosh but I have no time. Anyway hi HAHAHA I don't really have an idol because I find it stupid to obsess over someone but I want to meet you anyway awww :D

Your character was so (Y) in GG omg I totally fell in love with you. I don't like Nick gosh he is such a wuss -.- I can't remember the plot in GG and now I'm troubled because I can't remember if you hooked up with Vanessa or not! You better don't wtf. Stick with Blair!

Anyway I like you because you are so sweet to Blair LOL and you've a complicated personality. Although you're not really very handsome and you give me the impression that you're quite short but then I like your expressions omg they are damn soulful I swear HAHAHAHA. But your hair quite is quite weird in the series I think you should change your hairdresser. You look like you're balding D:

I think you'll disappoint me in real life as Ed Westwick but I shall pretend you're going to come meet me as Chuck Bass hmmm. Oh btw I think it's quite cool you managed to change your accent for the series :D

xoxo,
Jasmine :D

Day 8: your favourite internet friend

Dear favourite internet friend,

Hello I don't think you exist. I prefer talking to people face to face HAHAHA but ohwell if I must have one I hope you'll appear soon then I can force you to read my rants!! Gosh quite impossible though. This is the stupidest letter I've written so far ):

Jasmine

Day 7: your ex-crush

Dear ex-crush,

I actually had this letter intended for someone else but I don't think I'm up to writing it anymore.

Okay anyway I was thinking back and I realise you were my 1st crush in RV HAHAHAHA. Even though it was only for a very short period of time but still! I've no idea why I liked you though, you don't really have much redeeming qualities except for maybe your confidence? But then again, you've too much of it which is actually kind of a turn off.

I remember there was this time you talked to me and I was so embarrassed gosh ._. I think I ended up mumbling something senseless and walking off. You must have thought that I was mad. Maybe I am LOL. Oh well I'm still quite embarrassed to have ever liked you. Quite glad I don't go for your type anymore.

Jasmine.

Day 6: a stranger

Dear neighbour,

I've no idea what your name is and I've no interest in knowing. I guess we're considered strangers because we've never spoken before.

I don't why but I feel very sad for you. You're always screaming and slamming doors. I've heard rumours about your family and it makes me sad. Even though you're really a bitch at times but I guess if the rumours are true then you've your reasons. Although that doesn't change the fact that you're a terrible mother ._.

Oh well I've no idea why I'm writing this letter to you. I guess maybe I'm not in the right state of mind now but I hope that your life improves.

From,
your neighbour.

I guess no one will ever understand.

I'm too emotional.

You know I can't stand people like you. Have a little more trust why don't you.

Forget it.

Day 5: your dreams

Dear dreams,

I can't really remember you most of the time. But I hope I'll stop remembering the weird China dreams LOL. Let me remember the interesting dreams!

I hope I can have a dream where I'm in this awesome place with a lot of hot guys and where I can eat a lot without getting fat HAHAHA. Even better if it's recurrent! I bet my studies will improve if I've such dreams every night.

Just kidding heh. It's boring to have recurrent dreams. Maybe you can let me dream about me being in the palace LOL I think it's kind of cool. I think I'm being affected by the drama gosh. Actually I won't want to be in the palace because it's a scary place ):

Oh yesss I don't want nightmares btw I think they're scary ._.

love,
jasmine! :D

I'm supposed to go out now but I can't bring myself to open the door HAHAHA. Now I'm going to be late ._. &I'm damn sleepy I can't open my eyes fully.

Oh and you know I can't find the rest of my fbts only the purple one and I've to wear the blue skirt over it because it's embarrassing and now I look like a noob LOL.

Awesome afternoon (Y)

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I'm back.

Gosh when me and weely reached yck it was raining like mad and we'd no umbrella HAHAHA. Then I ate the super nice instant noodles heh. Oh yes but after that it was still raining like mad ): So we went to amk to find umbrella LOL. &We ended up with this




HAHAHAHAHA it looks more stupid in real life we couldn't stop laughing. &We didn't dare to use in HQ either.

Oh oh I wanted to post this just now but I forgot! Oh yes you know the more I know about you the more disgusted I get.

You're seriously damn disgusting so stop flaunting and thinking you're so awesome when you're obviously not. Tmd I was so pissed off just now I could've threw darts at your face if you had appeared in front of me. Who do you think you are huh!! Very angry at how some guys treat girls. I swear if anyone ever does that to me I'll castrate him. HAHAHA gosh.

I'm quite sad there is no charlie outing later. But ah well I'm going HQ with weely again gosh.

Day 4: your sibling(s)

Dear Jonathan,

Hello you noob. I'd a lot of things I wanted to type out just now! But then when I stared at this blank page I forgot what I wanted to say. LOL. Oh yes I was so pissed off with you yesterday -.- You and your stupid hissy fits. But then again it reminds me so much of myself when I was in sec 1 HAHA gosh I didn't know I was that unreasonable and bitchy. Now I do though! I hope you'll realise this soon enough before you start regretting like me. You used to be so mild tempered and very talkative and friendly. But now you just mope around the house and give that bs face all the time.

I know I was quite mean to you last time and kept saying nasty things to you :/ I bet you don't know that I was quite jealous of you when we were young because I always felt that mummy doted on you more. &You were always so likable, adults loved you.

Hmm I remember I was quite protective of you when we were young LOL I guess it was my way of showing my love? Can still remember that bitchy school bus auntie omg! I swear she was abusing her power -.- Oh and when we had swimming lessons last time I was always so afraid for you when we had to go into the deep end because of that stupid incident when we almost drowned. But you ended up a much better swimmer than me.

Oh and you remember BCC HAHAHA so childish! But we played it for a lot of years. 4 years? &We swore never to tell anyone what it means and you know what? I think I kept my promise!

I guess it's partially my fault we became so distant from each other but I'm quite glad you joined NCC. Even though I don't think you're going to feel the same way as I do but still! I hope you do. Oh and I'm kind of glad you opened up to me a little bit more (: Go for yy LOL I support you! Just don't become too mushy please it's quite disgusting.

Oh I don't really love you I guess but I do like you sometimes. &I miss the old you.

xoxo,
Your sister :D

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Dear Jeanette,

Aww hi (: Quite funny writing this to you HAHA you don't even know how to speak yet! You know I really do love you a lot hmm even though you sometimes make me unable to sleep gosh why do you sleep so late anyway!

I find it so cute how you like sleeping with the air conditioner on LOL. Oh and how you loved listening to MJ songs when you were still in the womb. Now you just cry when we play music -.-

You know I think I didn't love you enough and I'm sorry but I was really scared. I hope you'll forgive me.

I LOVE YOU BABY HAHA (L)

xoxo,
Your sister :D

You know that feeling when after you just took a bath then your hair is dripping wet and you feel irritated because you've wet hair. HAHAHA I think I'm having mood swings how! I'm feeling happy and sad at the same time gosh.

But I really hate having wet hair it's irritating ._. &It takes so long to dry.

Day 3: your parents

Dear Daddy,

Hello I never would have guessed that I'll be writing a letter to you. On my blog somemore LOL. I remember when I was young I looked up to you a lot. You were like the world to me. &When you went for your overseas work trips I missed you so much I hugged your enormous bolster to sleep. When I was young, you were always the one who gave in to me and I know that's because you love me. I was so spoilt hahaha you bought me so many toys just because I wanted them.

You know I always wondered what went wrong. I guess it's because as I slowly grow up I learn things I couldn't understand when I was young. &I guess it's because I'm too much like you. I'm too stubborn for my own good.

I'm glad at least we're talking now, and I know you still love me even though you don't say it anymore. I think I still need more time though.

But well, I LOVE YOU TOO DADDY (L). &I'll never forget the fact that you were once the person I admire the most.

xxx,
your daughter

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Dear Mummy,

I remember when I was young I thought you were the prettiest woman in the world haha. But till now you're still pretty to me LOL. When I was young and we still went out together, people always comment how on I don't look like you at all and I know it made you quite sad but you didn't really show it. Oh I remember how in pri school you always cycle me to school, now that I think back it must have been really tiring. Gosh. &There was this time long ago you cut your finger and I know it must have hurt like mad but you still had to help me tie my hair. God I was such a selfish brat. I'm so sorry ):

I know we'd a lot of quarrels and both of us had said things we are not proud of. I want to apologise for some of the things I said to you in the past out of spite because I know that they hurt you really bad but I was too selfish, too angry to care. I'm glad that at least now we don't quarrel as much as before. I guess it's because I'm more mature now?

I'm trying to be a better daughter and I hope I can be but it's going to take time. I've a lot of things I want to say but then I've no idea how to put them into words. I guess there's never enough words to show gratitude.

Well, I LOVE YOU MUMMY (L)

xxx,
your daughter.

Catch me

I like her voice (:

I can't believe I spent this whole day at the library doing hw! Quite sad actually LOL and I ate a lot omg I feel damn full and sick now.

I can't wait for my dad to come back so I can hurry up and give him his fathers' day present! It's going to be 12 soon.

Day 2: your crush

Dear you,

I was thinking about how to write this letter just now. I seriously have no idea how to write this letter LOL quite ridiculous actually because I don't even really have a crush on you anymore I think it died out like a week ago? So that makes you day 7. But no I'm not going to write that for you HAHAHA. You know it's actually quite weird to be writing this on my birthday! Anyway, I just want to say thanks (:

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&LOL CHUA JIAXIN ARE YOU APPEARING OFFLINE? Let's go back macs and find that chio lesbian girl! HAHA.

Day 1: your best friend

I'm only to do this 30 days letter thing cos it seems fun. You know there's a 30 day kpop thing too omg madness.

Dear Chua,

HAHA you know you're my best friend right! You know I actually have no idea how we even became best friends, quite weird I think we hated each other at the start of year 1 but I can't remember why. Ohoh I'd a hard time trying to remember your name on the 1st day of school btw I thought you were weird LOL sorry! Can you remember our childish twitty lesbian blog? Our anniversary is on April 27! I checked from the blog haha. Oh I lost the archives of your twitty blog ): I want to read about the noob things we did so you must faster go undelete it I promise I won't laugh at it anymore.

I'm starting to recall all the weird things we did together and I realise a lot of them are quite embarrassing. Like that time we ran across a road I think and a car almost hit us and both of us started screaming vulgarities hahaha and everyone started staring at us. &How we bought the same swimsuit for swimming lessons. We both looked noob D: Oh and that time we were on a bus together and we started calling each other weird names. Aiyo so childish LOL. &There's still our maple characters HAHA. I can't remember the rest right now but haha confirm got a lot more omg we did so many stupid things together last time.

Hmm and I love you for being so similar to me. Like how we always end up being late for everything because we always oversleep/spend too long combing our hair and how we always end up bathing for so long. And the fact that we anyhow scold vulgarities when we're pissed off oops. &How we like stalking pretty girls and hot guys! Oh and how we are both so noob and always promising ourselves that we'll turn pro-er but in the end still fail. Omg all these are bad habits actually LOL.

&I love you for being different from me. Like how I'm white and you're black HAHAHAHAHA! No lah just kidding. But you like huachi-ing over ugly guys which I don't >) &Your chinese is better than mine and to be truthful you actually look quite pro while reading chinese but I didn't want to tell you that last time HAHA.

I think this letter is the longest I've ever written you! &It's going to become longer omg I've a lot of things to write. I want to thank you for always being there for me even though now we're not in the same class anymore. I love you because I can tell you anything and you won't judge at all (: &I want to thank you for standing by me no matter what, like last year with yp. Actually not only that but a lot of times already. I know there were times we fell out like that time last year whereby there was this period of time we'd nothing to say to each other. I guess it wasn't really falling out? But during that time I did question our friendship and I wondered if we could really stay as best friends. Thinking back that was quite stupid. I always end up losing friends because I get scared when people get too close to me but I'm glad I didn't lose you during that period.

LOL writing this letter makes me feel nostalgic. Even though we're not in the same class anymore and not as close as before but you're still my best friend because we've been through too much together and no matter what you know you'll always be in my heart. Aiyo idk how to write this because somehow all the mushy stuffs always end up sounding so cliche. But you know what I want to say right!

Okay I think I should end off already. I LOVE YOU CHUA JIAXIN (L) Ohoh &remember our promise to each other from last year okay!! Our turn will come soon hahaha patience :D

JASMINE (:

Because

no one cares enough to make an effort.

It's no wonder people drift apart. I should have known huh.

&YES JUNHUI MOULIN ROGUE IS AWESOME HAHAHA (:

Closer

Watched closer yesterday.




It's quite nice :D I think it's supposed to be abstract? Quite confusing at first cos they kept jumping here and there without notice and I can't recognise the characters cos they look different at different parts of the show.
The storyline is about this two couples who had affairs with each other. I like natalie portman's voice it sounds very sexy. HAHA.

Oh and I finished LA hw (Y) Gosh it's the only thing I know how to do. I need help with everything else. Especially chinese ._.

&I don't understand why my hair won't grow.

And the thing is

history really do repeat itself.

Does it matter?

Omg I realise I've less than 2 weeks of holidays left and I haven't done anything constructive at all!!! Z I'm going to start tomorrow.

Today was (Y) and (N) ._. (Y) part was mam joycelin talking to us, going to buy foodddd and giving weely her card but the rest was (N). I felt so motivated to mug just now but it's gone again HAHAHA and my ezlink card is with weely tey I dropped it on the bus so I can't go out ): Actually I'm just lazy LOL.

My voice is damn high pitched which is quite disgusting ._. I need to be more man.

nothing to lose

3H BBQ was awesome HAHA all we did was to bbq eat play and camwhore but still fun. The stingray is awesome. Oh and our class tee is very pretty.

(:

Fucktards.

One last day O: WE CAN DO IT CHARLIE! :D

But even so I'm still scared to death gosh.

Your song

I'd a dream this morning that I was going china on a bus. Mad HAHA and all I wanted to do was to go home and get my camera charger.

Anyway Moulin Rouge! is damn nice omg O: I like the songs! &Nicole Kidman has the same birthday as me LOL. Wah the guy is quite hot also.

Marigold have terrible tasting yoghurt yucks ._.

&I keep thinking that I'm finished with gsk when I obviously haven't zz.

I was laughing at the longest time at this for the wrong reason HAHAHA. A lot of funny pics in astrid's album.

I realise I've really bad moodswings like astrid goh. Okay back to gsk. &I'm going to delete this blog LOL blogging is boring.

&This is how losing a friend feels like.

I don't like talking about the serious stuffs. Spoils everything.

#07 Astrid 2FTW! says:
and taeyang doesnt look korean right!

#15 JASMINE 2FTW! says:
ya he looks indian

#07 Astrid 2FTW! says:
LOL WTF

#15 JASMINE 2FTW! says:
LOL no lah i think he looks chinese

#07 Astrid 2FTW! says:
eh i dont wanna talk to u alr lol

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It's so easy to lose yourself.

What am I doing seriously. I should stop this.